mixed emotions???

I'm not even sure mixed emotions is the way to describe how I'm feeling about going back to work Tuesday. I have to be perfectly honest, I'm not looking forward to it. In my dream world, the ideal thing for me would be to stay at home, but still get my pay check! haha- yeah, big (and unrealistic) dreams, right?! Anyway, I really enjoyed being home for the past two months....ok, ok, so maybe not so much the first two weeks of Claire's life, when I think I cried more than her, but after that, it was awesome! Another fact is, I like my job, I really do. I have so much to look forward to as a PE teacher. First of all, I never have the same day, something is different, whether it's fun, or annoying, it's never the exact same. I also have the weekends, and hopefully (please, mother nature) some snow days, and then what's better than having the WHOLE summer off?! So much to look forward to! I am also nervous about leaving Claire at day care. I feel very comfortable with where she'll be, and I know she'll be loved, but I worry she'll cry all day, or be miserable, or the ladies will want to kick her to the curb because she's cranky! I know, I know....first of all, Claire will never remember any of this (but I will!) and I know it's not really my problem if she cries all day, because I'll be at work, but I still would feel so bad, mostly for the people who have to listen to it, but for her too. Ugh...I'm a mess! (You're probably thinking if I'm a mess now, I'll be a total wreck come Tuesday morning!) Oh well...there are lots and lots of working mom's with great kids, and even a meal on the table, and a clean house all at the same time, so it can be done, right?! Heck, my mom was the bomb, and she had 3 kids under 3 years old. (yes, that's a bit nutty!) Anyway, if you think of it on Tuesday, say an extra prayer for me! (and Claire, and Jeff, who will have to listen to my cry!)